feels like my heart is officially broken

Feels like my heart is officially broken, i'm in bed and have been since last night, food cant tempt me to get out nor can the toilet lol. I hate this part right here. The realization that your relationship is over and your being ignored, Mr educated is know longer apart of my life and as much i started to despise him i still love him, i know it cant work but part of me wants to cling on, part of me doesn't want to be alone with my thoughts, it's the thoughts that drive you crazy, its the thoughts that hurt. Ive had Maxwell on repeat for 24 hours now, i know i need to get a grip but right now maybe i just need to allow myself to go through this pain. On the other side when i eventually get out of this, great things are to come.....................